OH LORDY - I was TAGGED......

EDITED TO ADD: Yes, Tyler - this post was quite depressing wasn't it? Siiigh!

My sweet friend Katie, Mommy of Arianna and Brayden, tagged me today.....so, here are my answers:

i am: a mother, a wife and hopefully a good friend

i think: that Sydney's adoption is going to last forever

i know: that given the choice, I would definitely do it all over again.

i want: my dear friends kids to all come home from GC at the same time as Sydney! PARTY IN GUATEMALA GUYS!!!

i have: a heart from the "babies" of Guatemala

i wish: I enjoyed being outside more

i hate: that Sydney's adoption has affected my life the way it has. I have become quite a hermit.

i miss: my daughter

i fear: how long it will be before my Sweet Sydney comes home!

i feel: very blessed despite all the junk that we've been through in the past 18 months!

i hear: the local news and UPS delivery truck

i smell: not much --- i haven't started dinner yet and nothing smells at my house right now!

i crave: PANCHO'S RESTAURANT in GC and I have since we were last there!

i search: the web waaay too much

i wonder: if the people that have delayed my adoption realize how broken hearted my boys are that there sister isn't home.

i regret: not making a bigger stink about how things were going and standing my ground before now.

i love: my husband and children more than I could ever tell them!

i ache: for my fostermom and the pain she will have to go through for a second time when Sydney comes home for good!

i care: about my friends that are also adopting from Guatemala

i always: try to help educate those around me about our adoption processes.

i am not: that I have let myself go for the past couple years and vow to get "ME" back.

i believe: that all the pain will fade when Sydney comes home!

i dance: as little as possible because it's a SCARY SCARY site!!

i sing: a lot less than i used to

i cry: when I hear more bad news regarding our adoption process

i don’t always: handle things as tactfully as my sweet hubby.

i fight: as little as possible because I have SVT and it gets my heartrate up too high!

i write: best when I am mad or angry....it's not always the nicest but it's how I feel.

i win: when I don't allow things to affect me in a negative manner

i lose: when I allow anger/frustration to take over

i never: imagined I would have traveled internationally to adopt 2 of my kids

i confuse: EASILY!!

i listen: to my emotions more than my head --- not always a good thing!

i can usually be found: at home on the computer or at the ballpark with AJ

i am scared: to think about how much ground I have to cover to help Sydney catch up

i need: my family and friends and alone time

i am happy about: our decision to adopt our kids from Guatemala

I would love to: get good news about our adoption this week!

I TAG these bloggie friends:

ALLISON(Jordan's Mommy)
TAMMY (R & G's Mommy)
MANDIE (Izzie's Mommy)