Ramblings of a waiting Momma ---

I am so emotional over this whole Atlanta USCIS thing! I have been asked to wait until a week has passed before I check in with my congressman's office about our I171H. All this adoption stuff...no answer yet. I miss her so much, I want to go back and foster, I want Alan to get that job so I can stay home.....need I go on?

I want to stop being so sad because I am lucky and I have held her in my arms but that's why I'm so sad at the same time. I want her back in my arms again....I want someone to give me an answer. This is the hardest part for me - believe it or not.

I think it's because I know that I have NO control of anything after this point. It just seems like we can't get anyone to help us do something SO easy. We JUST did this less than 2 years ago. Honestly, I feel that Congressman Cramer won't be able to help and I think I know in my heart that it's not going to happen before the entire 90 days. I'm still holding out that hope but at the same time by doing that I'm kidding myself and creating false hope for myself.

I am so anxious that my stomach hurts. I think of Sydney and I cry because I miss her so much. I just pray I hear SOMETHING very soon.......